I wish to stay,
But then I keep running away.
I wish to be free,
But then I entangle myself in that chain.
I wish to have someone here by my side
But all I do is push them away.
I wish to talk my feelings out,
But I keep silent,
Or at times just burst off.
I wish I could tell you,
That I don’t want anything from you,
Except some love and hugs too.
But all I did,
Was push you away,
Told you to never conatct me again,
Told you that I hope we meet never again,
But I wish you knew how it keeps me killing me every night.
I know, my words don’t match my feelings at all
I’m sorry I hurt you, I hope you forgive me, some day,
But I feel, people might leave me anyways,
So why show, that I care, at all?